parallel.

some songs.
...thinking you just know something.
but it's still a mystery. i don't know if i'll ever get to a turn in this story, let alone any sort of conclusion or even a hint of what any of this means.

a fitting home?
i think so.
distance and lack of communication usually keep me up at night. or if i do get some sleep, this finds me in the most peaceful of dreams and then i don't mind what's really going on.
how can i let this go when it's so...wonderful. i can just let it be.
i like that idea.
that's how i've been getting by.

you know what i mean?

"i felt he found my letters and read each one out loud"

some lyrics have their way of making it from my notebooks into people's music.
crazy how our hearts and heads can be so similar...
to name a few....
r.adams
r.lamontagne
d.miles
m.higgins
b.marley
i.garnica
i.michaelson
ls.barber
b.rayne
j.reeves
and so forthhhhhhhhhhh


the fall.
the the smell of it, and the crisp air...
draws in my mind pictures of some of my happiest memories ever.
from when i was really young, in junior high, and just in the last three years.
wow, this is just crazy. what a crazy day.
i needed this break, that's for sure.
and even though i need to a. get rest, and 2. get some things done, i keep coming back to this computer to keep record of my little epiphanies and revelations.
cuz if i start writing with a pen on paper, i will be locked up there all day.
which i wouldn't mind.
but like i said i have things to do.

[by ama]

oh MAN!

just one sip of mate [+ one spoonful of agave nectar] and i got all happy.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeird

a lil fun rhyming somethin by: me last monday

"story"
i had a dream we were dragons, you see
flying over the deep blue sea.


i followed you to the top of our mountain home. it's the only place we are free to roam. with two trees covered in yellow leaves, the perfect place for you and me.



aww, cute.
[*no the dragons are not kissing in the second one. it just looks like it cuz it's a tiny scribble i did in the corner of a coloring page at the daycare i work at.]

birthday twenty six photos

never been more choked up

my friend is a genius.
especially number nine. it's my favorite of all favorites.
over fields is runner up...and so are long night and everything turns to gold...and little string and i bet you do. and the whole thing. basically.

good birthday

listening to favorite songs. all day long.
went to my art class but for the first time almost fell asleep just cuz i'm tired, but i really like that class and the teacher.
mom making good food all day long.
siblings in and out with school and stuff.
don't know what we're doing tonight.
if you haven't heard "over fields" then you really need to. it's my favorite birthday dancing song right now. i should go to the grassy field on the other side of my back yard fence and dance barefoot, pretending certain friends are with me [kt wood for one].....
but i'm not gonna do that, instead i am going to to pick up my free aveda birthday gift. funfunfun...