You can find me here:

I don't use this blog any more, but it's still special and when I was younger it was my outlet, so I'm not letting it go. I often use it as my sign in name when I comment on other blogger's blogs. This is where I'm posting now:

My blog. I used to write a lot, then I didn't have internet at home for a long time, so it'd only be able to post random things here and there or reblog things from blogs I read. I still love this little corner, even though it's been a little neglected for a while. Now that I have some free time while the boys I nanny are at kindy, I am sharing more photos and music:
http://stinatree.tumblr.com

My AUSTRALIA blog. I just moved here for about a year. This is my way of keeping in touch with family and friends while I'm away: http://stinabird.tumblr.com

My adoption blog. Because hopefully one day I can actually raise this boy in person. It has been quite a journey for my heart and mind after moving back to the States from Jamaica after the deep things this baby and I went through:
http://anchorandevergreen.tumblr.com

Tennis "Cape Dory" Video

i put this on my tumblr & it deserves a spot here too. JOIN THE FUN, EVERYONE :)

dear matrimony band, i love how you sound

the importance of sharing our stories from bohophotography.blogspot.com

yesssss

and i am still posting a little more often at stinatree.tumblr

I haven't used this in so long because I find it easy and fast to put random things up on tumblr. I like this though. and don't like it at the same time. It's like the notebooks I keep in real life. I don't often throw them away. There are memories here. I'm sentimental. It's interesting how much my ideas and opinions etc change in a short amount of time. It's like my view of things or at least the way I think of and handle them change so often. That's why I don't really like keeping the old notebooks. ...sometimes I just can't do away with them though. They help me remember the good things about myself too, and that's worth it to me more than hiding the parts I don't like.
I have about five hours left in my day. It's so dark out that it doesn't feel like "day" at all. Do what I can. That's what I keep telling myself. If I'm being honest with myself about that, then I'm not worried.
I have storage to move, laundry to put away, my manfriend to visit, and other stuff to fit in there somehow, like writing/art/studying.
I guess I like these things so much because I can ramble/thinkoutloudtomyself faster when typing than handwriting plus my wrists and hands don't get as sore.

tumble

i dunno. i just like this a little better: stinatree.tumblr.com

christmasish time with my family and our animals

what a random whiner i seem to be lately

interesting how i reflect myself when i'm too lazy to be creative
or something like that
i don't even know
and i guess at the core i don't really care since i'm doing it anyways
sorry if i seem boring or lame
i guess.

i don't really know what to say.
i'm just in a waiting period.
i got 3 out of 4 A's last semester. so that's nice.
the 4th could've been one if i didn't skip one of the papers. so i got a c. bummer.

i'm just still trying to get used to being in one place "long" term...i'm just over 9months living in one place. and i am still trying to get my good habits back that i quit when i was in jamaica. things like working out every day. it's so weird that it's hard to get back into it since that was so me for so long. since i was like 13 or something. anyways.

it's very fun figuring out how to be on a gluten-free diet, though sometimes frustrating...i have sad moments when i realize i will never again eat cheez-it or ritz crackers, crepes, and other things.

i just smell the foods that i miss and then i'm pretty much ok.

and i think i finally found a church that i want to go to regularly. i haven't had like a "home church" in SO long because of how much i've been bouncing around since 2004...it's kind of exciting and kind of scary.

i'm so into abba songs right now. thanks to mamma mia! [the musical based on their songs]..........i just really like a lot of the lyrics and that film is SO BEAUTIFUL...it's set in greece so i'm sure you can imagine if you haven't seen. maybe. it's just beautiful...the colors! wardrobe! dancing! ...anyways...

my big jesse dog really wants me to play with him right now, but i don't feel good and i get all woozy after like ten steps so. i feel bad for him. oh well.
the room is kind of spinning.
i just haven't written anything in so long...

birthdays in my fam, organic chocolate, and so forth

more pictures soon coming. there are still more december birthdays for us.
it's so cold in this town. i would like to nap and read and write and watch movies while i crochet all day with my big dog taking up all the space on my bed and my tiny space heater blowing at me from across the room.

anchor.

if it's not monday then it's friday either way i still love and miss him

mateo vincent

things are looking up for us, son

for some reason

i don't know why it came to mind. but i was reminded of this time on a trip when i was in joshua and i wanted darin and shannon to be able to hang out in the evening with everyone, so i offered to babysit their two boys almost every night. they were so little then! anyway someone always came along, like barb or katie and i think it was a time barb was there, i can't remember, but i had "pretty baby" by vanessa carlton stuck in my head and i kept singing like the one line i knew from that song...
anyways...
hank, with his lil bopo [binky] in his mouth, carrying a blankie, popped his head out of the bedroom and said, "baby's not goin anywhere, i'm right here"
too cute
and i think jack was sitting on the table while we played cards or something. i don't really remember.
well. there it is. and that's why i grabbed my cam and recorded myself singing that part. cuz it's a good memory.

now

not a question for answering

how is it, or why, that when anything goes wrong..."wrong"...big or small, it makes not having baby matthew with me feel that much more lonely and worse?!