not into it

i am having fun being a student at the jc here right now, but i am not into formatted essays...this research paper is sitting in front of me, one sentence written, a list of websites i could look up for research...but i'd rather listen to music [right now it's the same few songs from spring awakening and an occasional song from a friend or two] and...it's such a waste of time to procrastinate! haha

and i have to say i'll quit procrastinating after this one, because the situation i'm in right now is the result of procrastination and i can't really make sense of words right now because i'm tired. forming sentences of my thoughts, no thanks...

it would be so easy to write this paper if i'd just come across some legit information. three pages, double spaced, about how something like affirmative action or the right to privacy or freedom of speech has changed in the past 25 years.

super easy if i knew anything about it.

how on earth could something like lipstick jungle make me cry?!
i've never seen it before, don't know the characters or back stories to anything...
i just watched like 5 minutes of it cuz it was on and i was on my way up to bed.
uhh wow.
but it didn't draw tears. ALMOST, but didn't.
i was very choked up and really felt like crying.
twice.

fallfallfall

i love lighting candles. candles and matches smell good.
fall is so nice. sleeping in a cold room, reading all morning, the smell of the house and the back yard...it's like comfort food, but in the weather. if that makes sense.

i miss hume and chicago, because those are two places i used to be this time of year for oe and travelling to jamaica...but i'm glad i'm here. i like school-and i'm glad i'm only in it for one semester and that i'm going for fun. these 'mla format' essays are sneakin up on me though. gah!

anyway. i'm getting the travel bug again. i want to go all over the states and still think it would be fun to au pair in england for a summer, but as of now, i'll be attending aveda in the spring [well, i interview next week] and hopefully will get a sweet job for the summer/work on the adoption. after that...who knows. it's no big deal...i wish i could spend a week at hume right now. too bad.

crybaby

my friend posted this and kind of joked that it would make you want to cry.

...i sobbed.
so ridiculous......
ohmygosh...especially the moment where he just runs to them!
if you know me then you know. i'm such a sap. and okay with it.
oh-you should pause the music player and the bottom of my blog if you want to play this video...

bright sunshiney day-ay

i LOVE hearing the birds in the morning.
it's one of my favorite things...especially if i'm up early and making tea and breakfast.

also...i wonder why on earth bee pollen doesn't come in re-sealable bags...like shredded cheese does...

sunny sunday

wow

back in the beginning of this blog...the first few months of it...i was such a wreck. lots of emotional blabber, really. it's kind of embarrassing. oh the things i say when my emotions are doing all the walking. missing someone [mostly matthew at that time] does that to me i guess. it's kind of ridiculous.